TheNotSoSimpleLife

Ice skate...

2009-07-08T23:26:00.000+08:00

bored bored... finally an outing... but wasnt tat much fun.... i need ice skating shoes.... rented skates made of plastic kills ur leg... blisters all over @@ yea.. tats pretty much what we did... ice skate... chill at school... look at closed jamming studio... home.. haha.. at least not rotting at home... 2moro class starts... weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

I'm back!!

2009-07-07T19:45:00.003+08:00

yea.. new sem.. new beginning maybe? haha. K.. so got back KL on Sunday and found out class starts on Tuesday.. then.. today.. they announce class starts on Thursday.. You know how boring it is staying in the room whole day? uhh.. life..

so yea.. holiday wasnt that bad.. drove around as usual.. feeling the freedom.. if only i have car in KL.. wont be so bored... plus.. next year gonna be at a new campus... puchong.. being in an architect course... means u have to be able to go school at anytime to do project.. sometimes even late at night like the previous project... we ended at 1.00am @@ lucky my friend got car bring me back :) thanks Ben and Leonard Mak.. leave me 3 choices... public transport.. school bus.. or friends car.... public transport is so not on time... u cant juz leave and go as and when u like... school bus... on time.. but specific time... friends car... best option :D im such a burden..

so what happen today? just went to have my dinner and was at the lift lobby.. this negro was talking to his friend and his friend was on the phone ordering something.. suddenly he turned as said " Friend, whats five in Malay?" I replied "Lima". Then he told his friend "Lima, Lima" in the weirdess pronunciation.. but.. man I like them.. so open and friendly xD

took this inside MAS airplane.. LOL...

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2009-06-09T23:32:00.002+08:00

As past repeats again and again,
nothing surprises cos its all the same.
Feeling nothing, feeling so plain,
and yet again that same old pain.

Izzit me or izzit them?
thought bout it but nothing came.
Being stagnant, never moving,
like an infant, always crying.

Will I forever be under this curse?
Maybe someday i will burst.
Waiting for something, waiting for someone,
Waited so long, should i run?

In midst of thoughts,
In me i fought.
I want it to end,
I wanted a friend.

Finally?

2009-06-01T01:51:00.004+08:00

hahahahaha been so long since i've posted anything... donno what to say.. nothing much happened... or many things has happen that i donno how to start @@... im not single anymore xD, got ditched by friends, doing well in studies, much much more... but none worth blogging.. i think xD.. lost the touch la.. oh wells.

here to post my models that i've done so far.. for rememberence i guess

visual weight using colours

Design principle... sat on the floor for 11 hours to finish this model.. hand sore muscle pain xD

those are the newest models i've done so far... 1 more coming up... uhhh.. architecture... foundation... need more excitement man.. xD

another poem

2009-04-26T22:36:00.004+08:00

Life goes up and down and up and down,
I do want to live without a frown.
Why izzit so hard to smile?
When happy moments are so worth while.

Where is the old me that i seek?
Searching for it just make me sick.
And yet i still keep on looking,
It is something that will keep me living.

What is the purpose that I'm given?
Why do I feel so heat up like an oven?
What was it that kept me strong?
What was it that i did wrong?

The purpose I know now will it last?
Are these all my life long task?
What if I finish it all one day?
Will it be my turn to go away?

Filled with all these questions and thoughts,
My mind grew stronger as i fought.
But the stronger I am the harder i fall,
What if I fall and lose it all?

Life is so uncertain, it jumps at me.
It's wide and vast just like the sea.
And here I am stranded and lost,
Searching for a direction at all cost.

Oh God, I know You know the way.
If life is the sea You are the bay.
For the bay is a safer place to be,
It gives direction when I'm at sea.

Again I plead for Your help oh Lord,
I need You in my life again my God.
You know me, this is where I stand.
Come back to me Jesus once again.

im going crazy

2009-04-20T23:55:00.004+08:00

lol.. my new year resolution.. to win freecell 1000 times in a row.. im half way there :D

i juz had to post this lol

B.R.B.

2009-04-15T01:57:00.000+08:00

i'll brb... with post.. soon.. i hope.... going through though times arent the best times to write... all i write is bad stuff... and how fun would tat be xDxD ciaoz ppl

an urge to write again....

2009-03-31T20:31:00.004+08:00

if my life were a roller coaster... i will b the most twisted most wavy most curvy ride ever.... it is similar to my life... twisted.. going up and down.. turning all of a sudden... everything all messed up.. but funny thing is... this is what attracts people to line up and take this ride... they love the trill.. the adrenaline.. the sudden rush of wind blowing in their face... but they have no idea... they riding my life... their using me... over and over again... till they get so bored of it.. they leave... looking for another entertainment.. another ride.. another trilling adventure... and what will be left for me.. torn down and being thrown away... what do i gain but rust in my metals... what do i gain but having my bolts loosen after every ride... what do i gain but pukes from people that got sick.. sure people enjoy me... im happy they enjoy it. im happy they are happy, excited... but in the end they will leave... however... there will always be this group of people.. a small group compared to those that ride me.... a small group of people called the maintenence team... and they care for me... tighten every bolt in me.. clean me.. repaint me to prevent rust... and i apreciate them.. they sacrifice their time to take care of me... they work till late nite.. juz to make sure im alrite... which group are u in.... and this is my life as a roller coaster... a ride to b enjoyed.. a ride to b forgotten.. a ride... that will never end till i die..

So i posted......

2009-03-18T01:07:00.002+08:00

Nothing really good to post about... though its holiday and im suppose to enjoy... my mind is filled with thoughts. so much so that my brain got tied up and my thoughts juz jam... im in a complicated situation now.... scared to hurt others... giving too much of myself to others....... im in a mess.. a big big mess... y must life jump at u so suddenly... y must it be so complicated.... how i wish life was juz a primary school karangan... simply sweet and short... less than 200 words.. i lost my sense of direction.. lost in my own thoughts... i lost my beliefs... i donno what to believe anymore.... what i thought is right went wrong what i thought is wrong went right... im going crazy..... what is there to believe.. what is there to do........ im so lost and stranded... going through life like train on a railway... not deciding my own direction but juz following the tracks... im scared... im scared of getting hurt again... im scared of having my trust broken again.. im scared of my future.. of what is ahead... its all too uncertain... its out of my control... and im losing my grip of my steering wheel of life.... i need a break... i need to let go... and let someone else drive... im tired... im drained... im...... losing myself... i want my brain to stop functioning... i want my thoughts to diffuse out of my head... i wanna think notin... for a moment... catch my breath... and find that me that i lost..... and i don't think any1 can help... but myself..... messy post... it was juz a sudden urge... i lost the inspiration to write.... sorry....

Falling asleep

2009-03-04T08:13:00.002+08:00

Man im super tired.. xD yesterday weird thing happened. woke up at 6.30, showered, bolied water, made milo, changed clothes. I was all ready for school. BUT.. i lied down on my bed at around 7am for like 10 seconds *poof* i slept... when i opened my eyes it was 8 =.= rush to drink my milo and it was cold already *yuck* slept for 1 hour la!! then rush down to get a cab.. all of them say "sorry la boy.... traffic jam..."*shaking their head* haih... then had to walk to school.. with my heavy laptop... then get to school.. rushed my research and manage to just finish it on time :) came back from school.. played 2 rounds of DoTA.. then shower again.. lied down on my bed again around 7pm and *poof* i slept.. but this time i was hungry so i woke up 10 min later xD ate.. came back.. study a bit.. *poof* sleep again.. haha.. then Jamie called cos i asked her to.. :) half awake talk haha but it was a good rest talk xD

lesson learned... nv lie down on bed at 7.. its a ter sleep period.. "is very danger" xD donno wat im saying? go youtube search henry chow.. tee hee.. 1 day of rest... 9 more days of torture to 1 week of relaxation.. hehe "Tadaima!!!"

God bless

New day New day..

2009-03-02T07:02:00.002+08:00

uhhh,, just finish drying my clothes and now still got a bit of free time.. xD been so so busy this weekend.. rushing assignments and yet still not fully finishing it.. oh wells... life of a slack college student xD.. wells.. now i have a lot of folio stuff to do.. so boring... so not hands on but wat to do.. im tired to the core.. i need a rest... 11 more days to holiday... <3 cant wait to rest my shoulder and DRIVE!!! wakakakaka.. miss driving :(

gtg get ready for shool now.. cheers ppl.. notin much to write these days

God bless

wahaaaaaaa

2009-02-26T16:46:00.000+08:00

2 days without internet cause forgot to pay the bills xD. n now.. filled with assignments aaaaaaaaaaaaa.. 4 to be due on tuesdy... die.. 3 are research... aaaaaaaa no more weekend :( boohoo
time to go do.. no time for blogging xD ciaoz..

God bless

A poem..

2009-02-22T22:45:00.002+08:00

Bub-bup, Bub-bup, goes the heart,
This marvelous muscle that keeps on going.
Listen to it, beating so hard,
Signifying that life's on going.

Once the heart stop its beating,
Gone with it is your life.
Don't give up and keep on moving,
There's more to see when you are alive.

Some people say life is a playground,
Where you have fun and enjoy yourself.
But life is full of ups and downs,
No pain, no gain, just be yourself.

What goes up, must come down,
What goes down, comes up too.
When life is down don't give a frown,
When life is up you go "yahoo!"

Lend a helping hand to everyone,
We all go through the same old thing.
Keep on going until we've won,
Cause life is just so worth living.

:) sudden inspiration.. but kinda sucked xD God bless every1..

I'm so so sick...

2009-02-19T17:22:00.003+08:00

Gosh it feels like hell... my body's all hot and cold(not the song btw) xD teacher requested that i go back and rest so i did... 1st time in my life i was so blur i din even take my wallet to school.. ended up borrowing money from my friend and took a cab home.. im currently havig headache, fever, flue, sore throat and a slight cough.. i cant diagnose myself whats wrong with me.. sweated a lot already.. hopefully i'll get healed by 2moro...

And few of my friends are coming over to give me porridge to eat... so so touched... thank you joyce and lannie.. and others if u did help out :) thank you so much..

cheers, God bless

O Happy day..

2009-02-17T14:18:00.002+08:00

Why am I blogging at such an early time? because our teacher let us off early for submitting our models/projects :D weeeeeeeeeee.. time for some rest coz im a bit sick.. heh.. timing so nice :)

God bless

Done wit my project..

2009-02-14T23:44:00.013+08:00

yes im done and here are the pics.. hehe.. but i din stick them yet so might change idea if a nicer 1 comes up xD

our task was to cut a 10cm x 10cm x 10cm cube and make a centralize form model.. there can only be a maximum of 9 cuts. i used 8 :) what is centralize form? use wiki xD

the 2 cubes

the model xD (donno why the picture terbalik 1)

Happy Valentine's Day :)

2009-02-14T23:06:00.005+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day!!! went out with my classmates.. SINGLE PARTAYYY xD bunch of guys walking around in Sunway pyramid.. sad life i know haha.. went to A&W to eat... oh my gosh... legend food.. it disappeared from my home town when i was 12 i think... so sad.. the taste of root beer float... and also the double cheese burger... wow... just miss is so much.. haha

then the decoratives in Sunway pyramid was superb.. so romantic.. wished i was dating.. and yes.. there were a lot a lot of couples... som were crying som were happy.. heh.. i was jealous ofcourse... i juz miss the feeling of being able to care for a girl xD..

then then.. highlight of the day.. WEDDING ON ICE!!!! it was so nice.... so so nice... wish i were rich enough to have that kind of wedding.. hehe.. and the whole shopping complex stared in amaze la!!!! so nice o.. haha oh wells.. nite guys.. gotta go play som game now xD

God bless all the couples.. and the singles also la xD

My meal (db deluxe cheeseburger with curly fries and db scoop rootbeer float)

I miss this :(

Love stage <3

Love hanging thingy xD

Wedding On Ice (WOI) so so nice...

Another New Beginning

2009-02-14T12:46:00.003+08:00

Many things happened since my last post... 1st thing.. many friends came and comfort me.. thanks.. really appreciate that.. then.. I came to forgive Lannie.. It was the hardest thing i had to do... she was stress being away from home and stuff.. so i talked to her to comfort her... in the process... i slowly let go of my past.... and my shoulder became lighter :).. it was worth it... and so all that left for me to do now is my parents.. and just yesterday.. my Dad talked to me again.. he apologized for what he said and i was really touch.. i asked for his forgiveness too la... cos i said stuff i shouldnt cos i was emotionally disturbed :( sorry Dad...

And so now.. I guess I'm back to being me :) Architecture is fine... currently building a model.. hehe.. i build something that looks a bit like Sydney opera house xD will post it up soon.. Happy Valentines guys. Cheers :)

God bless